Friday, November 15, 2013

And, so, I ran.

In the same way the Spirit also joins to help in our weakness, because we do not know what to pray for as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with unspoken groanings. And He who searches the hearts knows the Spirit’s mind-set, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.  Romans 8:26-27

Today was a day.  One I would rather forget for the most part, but there were a few moments of joy, for which, I praise God:
1. I awoke this morning.
2. My boys were troopers when I found out at 8:40 this morning that I was to be at my pre-op appointment at 9:30. (Office thought they had called me, but they had not.) Dressed and ready in minutes with no questions asked, no complaints. They are the BEST!
3. Made my appointment on time, without speeding.
4. Although rather nerve racking finding out walking in to pre-op appointment, since I needed another ultrasound, my doctor made the appointment on my behalf today since I was already on location.  
5. I was able to fit in lunch with my family inbetween appointments. My wonderful mother-in-law stayed with the boys while they completed school and then took them to the house and played games with them until I arrived home.
6. Upon advice I did not hear from my ultrasound technician, I tried my doctor's office even though they closed two hours prior and I was able to speak directly with her. She spoke words of encouragement and relieved some of the overwhelmed-ness (today that is a word) I was experiencing.
7. Although there are unanswered questions that cannot be answered without another biopsy, this time on the right side, my already planned surgery is staying on schedule.  The cancer will be in the pathology lab one week from today...and no longer inside of me.
8. My best friends are the best! Making me laugh, yet holding me accountable, in spite of the day I was having.
9. Tonight, being it was too late and icky to go out to the Y, I decided to run at home. And, so, I ran. I do not like running, but tonight it was awesome. Scott had some steel bars in his truck, so I used them as weights. Redneck? Perhaps. But I felt better. 
10. Definitely not least, even if listed last, God gave me strength for today. My toughest day yet since finding out I have cancer, but I made it. God is at work, therefore, I know the battles will come. Battles so tough that I may find myself saying more and more at the end of the days ahead...And, so, I ran. Ran for my own sanity and ran right into the presence of my God who provides all that I need each and every day. 
God is matter what!


  1. such beautiful moments of pure gratitude. my heart breaks for you in love. praying your surgery goes well, that God will grant the doctors wisdom and discernment as they treat you, that you will feel the Lord's peace, and He continues to uphold you and your family.
    and, oh how it can be sometimes hard to say, even with tears in our eyes, God is good, all the time. yes, He is.

  2. Thank you, Dorie! God has blessed me with incredible people who, like you, are praying for me/us. It so makes a difference! You are a blessing!