Tuesday, December 29, 2009

keep moving forward


10 pm December 26th...Lego storage unit falls apart w/a bang...and I do mean with a bang!

So, I've been looking at this storage unit, put together by yours truly over a year ago, slowly lean more and more. Telling myself, of course, each time, "I really need to tighten those screws." I walk by and make it lean less, promising to get around to it. This is also along with telling myself it's time to sort all those Legos and get some things rebuilt so that the storage units aren't as heavy for the poor unit trying to hold them all. Yes, some things have a way of taking care of themselves.

December 26th...boys fall asleep watching a movie with me in the living room. At 10 pm, I proceed to carry Alex to his bed, kiss him goodnight and turn to go back for Tim. Leaving the room, I see the storage unit leaning excessively to the right toward the door. I chuckle to myself and utter those famous words I said above, all the while reaching to make it lean less. Not 2 seconds after getting it to stand upright does the whole unit give way and crash (and I mean CRASH) to the floor spewing Legos and plastic containers onto the floor. I burst out laughing...tears streaming down my cheeks, kind of laughing. I mean, at this point, if anyone could sleep through that crash they can sleep through laughter as well. It was hilarious...and I'm cracking up writing about it even now. Some things strike me as funny and this event sure did. No silent night happening here...not now anyway.
I composed myself, I thought, and grabbed the camera for a picture. Nice time to try out my new camera. (I love it, btw). Then I return for Tim, who's sleeping soundly on the couch. Now, Tim awake is hard for me to lift off the ground...asleep, it takes all I can muster to accomplish. I get him in my arms, and the thought of what has just taken place causes me to start laughing again...only this time I'm trying to carry a sleeping boy who is too big for me to carry in the first place to his room while laughing hysterically. Yeah, it worked out...for a few steps. I made it to his doorway and had to put the poor guy on the floor so I didn't flat out drop him. So, I'm laughing, crying from laughing, and apologizing to Tim (who's still asleep) in the doorway of the boys' bedroom. I wake him up enough for him to jump back into my arms and I get him safely to his bed...kiss him goodnight...and turn to leave. I take a step and hear Alex ask, "So, Mom...what happened to the Lego shelf?" Needless to say, I start laughing again and sit on his bed retelling him the story of my last 10 minutes. We laugh and enjoy the story together. Priceless moments...

The movie we had been watching was "Meet the Robinsons"...in the movie the motto is "keep moving forward". Tonight, on my third day of sorting Legos and seeing a light at the end of my tunnel, I was helping Alex find pieces to his police semi. On a search for a particular piece, I hear him state, "Keep moving forward," as he put another one in place. He was very excited to get his semi back together...especially since he now has the police station...and kept telling me how easy I was making it for him to find the pieces. Lots of hugs and thank you's later, it's almost complete...bedtime came and we had to call it a night.

I laughed as the phrase, "keep moving forward", brought back my nighttime crash of Legos and almost Tim...but it also made me think that no matter how tedious things get, it truly is important to keep moving forward. Things don't get done well in the present by constantly looking in the past. As of late, circumstances be as they may, moving forward is difficult. Letting go, trusting, moving forward...it's a challenge. It's not that I don't like a challenge...but it's that I like the way things were, too. The Legos crashing brought about a couple of things I expected...fixing the shelf and sorting the Legos. What I didn't expect was the joy in spending time "playing" Legos w/Alex...I was sorting, he was building...and the good feeling to get the project underway and almost completed w/results of my tedious work happening right before my eyes. Now, if other aspects of my life were so easy to move on from...that's my prayer for 2010.
Keep moving forward.
Who's ready to see what God has in store?
I know I am.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Musings…Remembrances…Excerpts…


Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.-- Anonymous

My thoughts as of late have been on friendship. Thinking of those special people in my life whom hold the title "friend", I cannot help but smile. Friends come in many varieties...God knows whom we need in our lives and the reason why. I do not believe friends happen by chance. A true friend is a priceless gift. "Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure." -- Jewish saying.

Sometimes circumstances are against us and miles may separate us, but friendship amazingly can remain. There's nothing like the moment two friends are reunited and they pick up right where they left off and it's as if no time has passed at all. I look forward to a moment like that...

Remind me of a time with laughter and I will have most likely spent it with a friend. The sweetest memories are those that are shared. Remind me of a time with sorrow and I will have most likely wanted to or have gotten through it with a friend by my side. Burdens are divided and therefore lessened by a friend's shoulder to lean on. Remember and realize life is better because of someone sharing it with you.

Examining my own journals and notes from friends, I find these...
"Wow...you made me smile." "I thought of you today..." "Come and visit. There's always room for you." "Only you would truly appreciate that I just had to wait for a duck to cross the road in front of me." "It's been a long time..." "Teen idol alert!" "You were there and I wanted to talk to you." "THANK YOU!" "I'm praying for you." "God is good...all the time." "Those who love the most hurt the most; because they have the biggest hearts." "Remain a blessing to those around you." "Big electric cat!" "Half my heart is in Alaska." ":)" Even more remain in my heart, but from these listed the varying differences in experiences are evident. Thank God for friends! They make the hardest of times bearable and the best of times better.

Yes, I love...need...and miss my friends...life isn't the same without them. No matter what, though, true friendship can endure the test of time.
Always love God first and foremost...give Him the glory due Him and everything else will fall into place. With God's help even the biggest problems can be worked out.
Practice being a friend to those you meet. You never know when friendship's going to happen...it may just surprise you and end up being the best thing ever!

"Two may talk together under the same roof for many years, yet never really meet; and two others at first speech are old friends."- Mary Catherwood

Saturday, December 19, 2009

light and dark


"We are like a candle that holds the flame, burning strong and bright the light of Christ. We softly give ourselves away in worship of Him and service for Him, that we might become less and less, and that He might become greater and brighter through us." Mary Fairchild

"Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it. There came a man who was sent from God; his name was John. He came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all men might believe. He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness to the light. The true light that gives light to every man was coming into the world." John 1:3-9

"He must become greater; I must become less." John 3:30

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it give light to everyone in the house." Matthew 5:14-15

"I am sending you to them to open their eyes and turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, so that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me." Acts 26:17b-18

Because Jesus himself bridged the gap between darkness and light on the cross, as Christians it is now our act of worship to shed His light to those lost in the darkness of sin. Sometimes it seems as if we are just standing on the edge of darkness in order to reach those around us with the Gospel. Not everyone is going to grace the walls of a church in order to see the light...it could be that we are called to go out into the darkness where they currently are in order to share God's light and love with them. It's a fine line to hold...between light and dark...may we never get so comfortable in the light that we forget about those still in the dark and may we never stray too far into the darkness that we dim our own testimony's light.

May we all share the light of Jesus with those around us in all we do and say starting this Christmas and continuing into the New Year.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Alaska: Take 3


"O LORD, God of Israel, there is no God like you in heaven or on earth - you who keep your covenant of love with your servants who continue wholeheartedly in your way." Solomon (2 Chronicles 6:14)

Looking ahead to summer of 2010...and loving just the thought of returning to Alaska! So excited to hear today that my dream is again a real possibility! Lord willing, July 17th-31st, I will be in Alaska on staff for two weeks with GraceWorks. How awesome is that?!! Different role this year, but still serving in Alaska...praise God for this great opportunity!

Is my excitement evident yet or should I add a few more exclamation marks?!! :)
Who knew my heart would be drawn to a specific place so much so that I would want to return again and again...and that God would provide the opportunity and finances to do so again and again. I thank God for His many blessings!

May I continue to honor Him in all that I say and do so that others around me will see and experience the love of God in and through me. Be glorified in my life, Lord!

Thank You for Alaska!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Christmas...love in action

"Christmas, my child, is love in action. Every time we love, every time we give, it's Christmas." Dale Evans Rogers

Truly, Christmas is the most wonderful time of the year...it's especially so since being blessed with Alex and Tim. The excitement they add to an already special season is priceless.
Asking November 1st when the tree is going up...wearing Santa hats just because...singing Christmas carols with all the gusto little boys can muster...enduring Christmas card picture day...telling me the best gift at Christmas is Jesus...getting up and dancing around every time we hear a favorite Christmas song on the radio...yes, we do enjoy Christmastime.

This year two special memories thus far have been hearing Alex singing "Go Tell it on the Mountain" in the shower and Tim proudly telling me, "I made the lights stop blinking and music-ing." (one strand of lights plays Christmas carols and blinks when you plug them in) However, they carry out the spirit of Christmas all year long. They, to me, are love in action. Beyond the hugs and kisses...they express love to others in unique ways; ways that make people feel special.

Alex...thinker, perfectionist, lover of routine with an occasional spontaneous notion...has a smile that lights up even the dreariest of days.

Timothy...dreamer, contented one, winner of hearts with one look from those big blue eyes...has a way to make friends like no one else I know.

With Alex and Tim, everyday is Christmas.

I wonder if they think the same about me...
top pic...Tim, one week old Christmas Day 2003
bottom pic...Alex, two months old Christmas 2002

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Emmanuel...God with us

I was reminded tonight that on that silent night of Jesus' birth, He was giving up so much just to dwell with man, so that man might eternally dwell with Him. Third Day sings it so well in their song, "All the Heavens"..."All the angels exalt you on high; What a Kingdom to depart! But You left Your throne in the sky just to live inside my heart." What a gift of love, indeed, is Jesus for each and everyone one of us. Oh, that I would not take Him for granted...nor any of the blessings He showers me with on a daily basis. His mercies are new every morning. There is so much for which to be grateful. Thank You, my God and my Savior, for the greatest gift of Your Son.
I have been reading "Revolution in World Missions" and thoroughly enjoying it! My purposes are to be about God and salvation provided by His Son's birth, life, death and resurrection. I am good to no one if in my own life I lack in seeking first the kingdom of God and His righteousness. What better gift could I give to someone this Christmas, than that of the news of the Gospel? This gift comes with an eternal warranty.
If you are browsing this blog and do not know Jesus as Your Savior, let me introduce you to the One who came to earth as a baby Christmas morning...lived a holy, perfect life as a man on earth...who came to die in our place and took the punishment upon himself for our sin. (John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.") He overcame sin and death by resurrecting on the third day. (Luke 24:6-7 "He is not here; He has risen! Remember how He told you, while he was still with you in Galilee: 'The Son of Man must be delivered into the hands of sinful men, be crucified, and on the third day be raised again.' ") You, born into sin, are a sinner (Romans 3:23 "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God") in need of a Savior. Jesus is our Savior (1 John 4:14 "And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent His Son to be the Savior of the world"). He is the way, the truth, and the life. John 14:6 says, "Jesus answered, "I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No man comes to the Father except through me." Romans 10:9-10 says "that if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." I do hope that you trust Jesus and do grow in a personal relationship with Him. He doesn't promise it will be easy or that there won't be problems in your life, but He does promise to never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5). The greatest gift we can receive is eternal life through Jesus Christ.
Merry Christmas!





Tuesday, December 1, 2009

It's the most wonderful time of the year...

December 1st...finally! November seemed to last an extra long time. The boys make the whole Christmas season brighter. We sing along with the Christmas songs with a smile and we dance around the house alot, too...with such great tunes as "Rockin' around the Christmas Tree", "Feliz Navidad" and "I want a Hippopotomus for Christmas"...who can resist the tapping of ones toes?

The big debate the past couple of days has been how many days of Christmas there actually are. One of the boys' favorite songs of course is "The 12 Days of Christmas"...but they also reason that the 25 days leading up to Christmas is "Christmas" as well, so that gives us, according to little boys' mindsets, 37 days of celebration. I am so okay with this...and proud to be their mama!

Knowing the real meaning of Christmas has always been of utmost importance to teach the boys. I have never been an advocate of the whole S.C. scenario, so it's fun to just have fun without all the pressure of the man in red coming through with big ticket items. Christmas morning is so much fun...but just as fun is the first day of getting out all of the Christmas decorations. They open those boxes as if there's a gift in them like on Christmas morning. It's so fun to decorate with them helping set up the Christmas village, the tree, and all the other little odds and ends around the house. I make homemade ornaments each year for us, too, so they look forward to hanging them on the tree and going over each one year after year. The only one that's not fairing so well is the "Gingerbread House" ornament I made the year we bought our current house. Tim's kind of sad the beads keep falling off...and I agree they need some attention...one day. :) This year's ornament is going to be a Gingerbread Man...made from felt, not foam, so the decor will stay on better (I hope!). In fact I need to get going on them...need to make ours and the ones for the youth tree as well. I love making them their ornaments for the tree in the youth room. Hope they like them again this year.

Only 24 more days until Christmas...let the countdown begin!










Friday, November 20, 2009

Alaska...sigh...smile


"If we were on the top of that mountain right now, we'd be in a cloud." me to Ryan, AK '09

Saw a show on Alaska "giants" tonight...Denali, sled dogs, mushing, bear, moose, bear eating moose...you name it, it was mentioned. This, on top of seeing updates from Traci and Heidi about the beloved frontier, only made me long to be there more...especially in the winter. Maybe one day...
Until then, I remember and I smile.

God is good and gracious. He gave me Alaska two times...and I am so thankful. If I never step foot there again, my heart will be happy with the memories.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

grandparents


"Even when I am old and gray, do not forsake me, O God, till I declare your power to the next generation, your might to all who are to come." Psalm 71:18



As Thanksgiving approaches, I can't help but thank God for my Grandma and Grandpa Miller. I realize that my life is blessed and enriched by having them in my life...and for such a long time, too.
Growing up with the farm as a second home was awesome. I might not have thought that all the time then, but now looking back I wouldn't change a thing. Grandpa always let us help with the chores and gather the eggs. My first experience driving was in his truck out by the pond while he was in the back picking up hay bales...or at least trying to as I jerked him around. Many a summer day was spent in the fields watching Grandpa and Uncle Mike work...and helping drive the tractor occasionally. A smile comes easily thinking on these times. Grandpa was always ready for an afternoon of fishing, too, if the day's work allowed. He'd take us to creeks in the area or we'd just go out by the pond. Many a great fish were caught on cane poles right off it's bank. Beside the pond stood my favorite tree on the farm...a weeping willow. I probably caught that tree as much as I did fish. The tree is no longer standing, but the memories are held close in my heart. Grandpa taught me how to climb up ladders and over fences...how maneuver a wheelbarrow and a pitchfork...how not to walk right behind the cows so I'd be safe...how to feed baby calves from huge bottles that were so slippery that I had to hold on with both hands so I wouldn't drop them while the calves drank...how to appreciate the variety of smells that go along with farming - the good and the bad. :) Most of all Grandpa taught me, and still does today, how to treat all people the same, leaving judgment aside...that Bible study is important every day of the week...and to take things in stride. He is a wonderful man and I love him!
When not outside with Grandpa, Grandma always had things going on in the kitchen or garden with which she welcomed help. One of the things that I remember from when I was little was that Grandma always went out and swept the sidewalk every morning (except Sundays). I never understood that, but faithfully that sidewalk was swept whether it needed it or not. :) Grandma is a great cook and I learned to love to do it myself while watching her and Mom work together in the kitchen. Nothing tastes as good as something made in Grandma's kitchen. (I talked about alot of this in my blog "the kitchen table"). Grandma taught me so many things about being a good housekeeper...I wish I had her tenacity to do it better. One of my favorite things that she would help us make was homemade peanut brittle...with peanuts grown in her very own garden sometimes. Grandma was good at writing letters to others and keeping in touch no matter how many miles separated them. I loved as a child looking at all her stationary and stamps in the secretary. Grandma is a great quilter, too. Many years later, I started to quilt, but it will take a lifetime to be as good as she is. I have some very precious gifts from her that she quilted. How she had time to do everything she did in a day I don't know. It's probably because she had no tv and no computer to distract her. Maybe I should take a lesson there and spend less time being distracted by technology, too. Oh, what I could accomplish! Grandma's greatest lessons to me are those that include being productive, effective and gracious in all areas of life. I love you, Grandma!

The picture above is of the farm that I love on Thanksgiving evening 2006. Thank God for Grandparents and the heritage they represent.

Monday, November 16, 2009

God's display of His splendor...









"When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him? You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor. You made him ruler over the works of your hands; you put everything under his feet: all flocks and herds, and the beasts of the field, the birds of the air, and the fish of the sea, all that swim the paths of the seas. O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth!" Psalm 8:3-9





Monday, November 9, 2009

To every thing there is a season...






“Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.” Dr. Seuss




Missing someone has to be the worst feeling to experience. Over the past several months, I've had to say goodbye to some pretty special people in my life. I would rather not have any more practice at saying goodbye, if you don't mind, please.
There are two sides to goodbye...the one leaving and the one being left. I started thinking about this more the other day when I realized I've been saying goodbye more this past year than I like...and then further realized it's harder because I'm the one being left. Most of my adult life it's been reversed...I'm the one leaving after a time here or there. Being the one leaving, there's almost always something to look forward to ahead of you. No matter how much it hurts to leave those behind, there's an unknown awaiting that brings excitement. Being the one left, brings a void...and it seems unfillable. Normal isn't normal anymore.
So, here I am redefining my normal...missing the ones who have gone on to new places and other things. Happy for them...knowing God is going to use them where they are now, but missing them and dealing with the void in their place. I like the quote above from Dr. Suess. It makes alot of sense to me.
Today, I start smiling again...
Ecclesiastes 3:1 "To every thing there is a season and a time to every purpose under the heaven."

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Fall + Leaves = FUN





Yes, my friends, it is time again for raking of leaves into piles for the sole purpose of jumping into them and scattering them hither to yonder all the while doing it. Gotta love it! And love it we do. In the three seasons of fall that we've lived here this day is looked forward to with great anticipation...and today was a perfect fall day for our annual leaf pile jump-a-thon.

Our previous yard had no trees...it is quite a different story now. Trees, trees, and more trees who are more than willing to shed their leaves for our pleasure. I've been amazed since moving to GA that the trees down here are not like those in the Northern states. These are just plain stubborn and refuse to drop their leaves around the same time. We know fall is coming when the leaves of one certain tree turn red and proceed to all fall off before any others even think of changing color. It's hilarious to hear the boys refer to "the naked tree". Other trees don't ever lose their brown, dead leaves until the new ones sprout in the spring. So, yeah, we have leaves falling from late October until March...nice. :)
The boys and I enjoyed our afternoon of raking and jumping...and relaxing in the leaf piles together. So much joy on their faces as they prepare for the first jump of the year...as well as joy in my heart because I know they are having fun doing something so totally provided by our Creator, God. He indeed is good...all the time.



Saturday, October 31, 2009

an extra hour


So, it's time to "fall back" an hour again...time change is upon us. So, we are given this extra hour. What do we do with it? Most will sleep this hour away...some will watch the minutes tick by and wonder if it'll ever end, perhaps. Makes me think about the fact that one time each year, many of us get something we long for many days of our lives...more time.
Spend it wisely.

This weekend I had a chance to spend some time with my best friend from college and her son...aka: Baby J. Love having them come and visit...but always sad to see them go, too.
Also had a chance to spend time with others singing in the rain today...that was fun. Gotta watch the "head back" verse while actually singing in the rain, however. :) Love you guys!

Take time today and invest it in someone else...you never know what will happen.

Monday, October 26, 2009

a gentle nudge


Been thinking alot about what a Pastor said in a sermon not too long ago. Talking about the Holy Spirit and how one is able to discern how to make decisions according to how the Spirit leads us. Usually, it was brought out, that often one finds that it's a gentle nudge here and there throughout one's life that leads us exactly to the place of ministry where God wants us to be for His glory. We're nudged out of one place and into another, often without lightning bolts and sirens going off, directing the way.

Sometimes I desire the lightning bolts and sirens...they would be helpful. :) Of course, even I know there are times when God makes it plainly clear how He desires us to move...but others, yeah, not so much. It's in those times, that I find myself in need of quietness so that I can hear how to choose the next step. Not quietness as in a total separation from everything around me, but quietness in that I'm diving into God's Word and spending adequate time in prayer so that the noise of life has a backseat to the Holy Spirit's nudges.

I've spent some time since that Wednesday night sermon thinking about how God has used gentle nudges to get me where I am today. Maybe one day soon I'll share some of those times...some rather recently. There are some awesome God moments in my life. Looking forward to sharing soon more of how God has worked it out to have me here, just where He wants me...for now. And am anticipating how He's going to continue to nudge me along in the days to come. He, indeed, is good all the time.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Alex's 7th Birthday Party


Alex wanted a bowling birthday party this year, so we invited his friends to an afternoon of bowling on his birthday. Junction Lanes provided a great party....and I do mean provided - they did everything from set up to clean up. We even had our very own "Party Hero" at our service the entire two hours. Everyone seemed to have a great time and I know my two did. The pizza and ice cream cake came along with the party, too, and were good tasting to boot.







Friends, fun, and food make for a great birthday party for a 7 year old.










My life was blessed 7 years ago with my first little boy...and everyday since then I thank God for him and the joy he brings. Love you little man!

Friday, October 16, 2009

Do you believe in superheroes?

I do...two, to be exact! Alexander Henry and Timothy Steven are mine...and they are superheroes in my book. What qualifies one to be a superhero? Well, there are a number of things that come to mind, but for me it only takes a hug and a kiss followed by an "I love you." Pretty simple, isn't it?

Who else can make me smile and be glad to wake up early every morning? They have a sweet way of waking up happy every morning. That to me is superhero stuff right there...my hero is a morning person. Period. And I have been blessed with two little ones who teach me how to get on with my day right from the start...with a good morning greeting to boot. They challenge me to start my morning off right..."Good morning, God!" is a common phrase you'll hear around our house.

What other superhero qualifications do they hold? Consider with me, for a moment, unconditional love...endless admiration...and sincere loyalty. Yes, indeed, they exhibit those things everyday to me, the one that it blessed to be called "Mom," but also to others they know and some they don't. Now add to those...resounding joy, consistent laughter, and endless energy. If that's not superhero-ness, I don't know what is. They turn the ordinary into extraordinary...the boring into exciting...the monotonous into adventurous. Everyone needs a superhero in their lives.



Yes, I believe in superheroes...do you?

Monday, October 12, 2009

my journey


10.11.2009

I had a chance tonight to sit down and share with someone about my journey to Alaska. In doing so, I was able to remember myself some of the ways that God had moved to make that even possible in the first place. And, to remember how He spoke to my heart while there and moved in ways only possible of a God in control of all things. Simply amazing. Both times.

I learned on my journey to Alaska that God allows us to have plans, but He is the true author and finisher of them. He makes things happen that we don't even think of...He lets us watch or sometimes take part to bless us. Blessings we sometimes do not deserve, but receive nonetheless. He also taught me along my journey to take myself out of the equation and let Him make it add up. He always does and gets it right...the first time.

Along the way, some things changed...my perspective, my goals, my passion...and I'm so glad they did! God is doing something and it's bigger than me. But, He's allowing me to take part and that excites me.

To be used by God...for God...so that God is seen by others. That is the purpose I have and it will continue for as long as I have breath...now, that's a purspose statement you can hang your hat on!

May I always remember my journey to AK...and know it wasn't about the destination, it was indeed about the journey God led me on and continues to lead me on today, that I am to remember in the end.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Anna's Bridal Shower


On Thursday, October 1st, I threw Anna a Tupperware Bridal Shower, inviting those from our Sunday school class and family members of Anna and Ken.
Chrissy does a wonderful job hosting her Tupperware parties and made the night a great time for us all. Good food, great products, and wonderful friends...can't ask for anything more.







Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Ask. Hope. Expect.


"I call with all my heart; answer me, O LORD, and I will obey your decrees. I call out to you; save me and I will keep your statutes. I rise before dawn and cry for help; I have put my hope in your word. My eyes stay open through the watches of the night, that I may meditate on your promises." Psalm 119:145-148


Ask of the One who can answer. Hope in the One who is the Alpha and Omega. And expect to draw closer to the One who fulfills His promises.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

learning...living...hoping...


"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning." Albert Einstein

Questioning is one thing I don't think I'll ever stop doing. I've become quite an expert at questioning things...why? when? what? The list could go on and on. The important thing for me to remember to do along with all the questioning is to continue to learn, live and hope.

Proverbs 3:5-6 comes to mind..."Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."...and even though I question alot of things, I know my answers are awaiting me someday. It might not be in the timeframe I'm thinking it should be, but the answers will come. And, I will understand...one day. Until then, I'm learning and living...hopefully. :)



Saturday, September 19, 2009

coming apart to get it together


This afternoon, I had a few minutes to myself and I picked up an old hymn book I have from my church in Indiana that I have out on the side table...most people have magazines, I have hymnals. (I think the old ones are pretty cool -the feel of the pages, the smell...antiques for sure one day). I was thumbing through it and humming along as I read the words on the pages until the title of a song I didn't know caught my eye. The song is called "Come Ye Apart" and no matter whether I ever hear it sung, the song will always be a special one to me from here on out. God used an old hymn to speak to His child's heart in a unique way and I am so glad He did. Before you judge a song by it's genre, make sure to read it first...it may just hold a message for your heart.

"Come ye apart!" it is the Lord who calls us,
and oh, what tenderness is in His tone!
He bids us leave the busy world behind us
and draw apart awhile with Him alone.
Mid restless crowds with all their noise and tumult,
No rest, no leisure, find our spirits there;
Our vision fails, our sense of life's proportion,
Unless we seek the quiet place of prayer.
Full well He knows, for He Himself hath made us;
Yea, He Himself was human as are we;
How much we need the calm of sweet communion,
New strength to gain for battles yet to be.
He knoweth how for us to have compassion,
Whose feet have journeyed many a weary mile;
Shall we not go in answer to His bidding:
"Come ye yourselves apart and rest awhile?"
And so He calls us into desert places
Where human voices may not drown His own,
There to receive the fuller revelation
He makes known to those who wait with Him alone.
"Come Ye Apart" ~Thomas O. Chisolm

The days of hymns are swiftly departing...sometimes the stories they tell take you on such a journey that if someone disregards them as old fashioned there is a chance one might just miss a God moment waiting to happen. It's not the time to argue the point of hymns versus praise...I love both...it all depends on the place and purpose of those gathered to sing.
The days following Wow! Alaska '08 were difficult...finding myself back in the "real world" after an awe inspiring time with God and feeling so alive and free in Him again was discouraging at times. The fact that God still wanted to use me was a humbling and encouraging experience all rolled into one wild adventure. All it took was God calling me to step away from the "norm" and for me to go and be with Him alone. It worked...so much so I was able to return to Alaska and see again how God moves in mighty ways when we are able to hear and see more clearly. These days haven't been easy either, but I'm holding on. Those moments in life where God comes and meets you right where you are...they are unforgettable and life-changing. The problem with that is often you are alone in these moments and the people around you haven't a clue how God's moving right before their eyes in your life.
It can be a lonely place, but a necessary one...