Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Ask. Hope. Expect.

"I call with all my heart; answer me, O LORD, and I will obey your decrees. I call out to you; save me and I will keep your statutes. I rise before dawn and cry for help; I have put my hope in your word. My eyes stay open through the watches of the night, that I may meditate on your promises." Psalm 119:145-148

Ask of the One who can answer. Hope in the One who is the Alpha and Omega. And expect to draw closer to the One who fulfills His promises.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning." Albert Einstein

Questioning is one thing I don't think I'll ever stop doing. I've become quite an expert at questioning things...why? when? what? The list could go on and on. The important thing for me to remember to do along with all the questioning is to continue to learn, live and hope.

Proverbs 3:5-6 comes to mind..."Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."...and even though I question alot of things, I know my answers are awaiting me someday. It might not be in the timeframe I'm thinking it should be, but the answers will come. And, I will day. Until then, I'm learning and living...hopefully. :)

Saturday, September 19, 2009

coming apart to get it together

This afternoon, I had a few minutes to myself and I picked up an old hymn book I have from my church in Indiana that I have out on the side table...most people have magazines, I have hymnals. (I think the old ones are pretty cool -the feel of the pages, the smell...antiques for sure one day). I was thumbing through it and humming along as I read the words on the pages until the title of a song I didn't know caught my eye. The song is called "Come Ye Apart" and no matter whether I ever hear it sung, the song will always be a special one to me from here on out. God used an old hymn to speak to His child's heart in a unique way and I am so glad He did. Before you judge a song by it's genre, make sure to read it may just hold a message for your heart.

"Come ye apart!" it is the Lord who calls us,
and oh, what tenderness is in His tone!
He bids us leave the busy world behind us
and draw apart awhile with Him alone.
Mid restless crowds with all their noise and tumult,
No rest, no leisure, find our spirits there;
Our vision fails, our sense of life's proportion,
Unless we seek the quiet place of prayer.
Full well He knows, for He Himself hath made us;
Yea, He Himself was human as are we;
How much we need the calm of sweet communion,
New strength to gain for battles yet to be.
He knoweth how for us to have compassion,
Whose feet have journeyed many a weary mile;
Shall we not go in answer to His bidding:
"Come ye yourselves apart and rest awhile?"
And so He calls us into desert places
Where human voices may not drown His own,
There to receive the fuller revelation
He makes known to those who wait with Him alone.
"Come Ye Apart" ~Thomas O. Chisolm

The days of hymns are swiftly departing...sometimes the stories they tell take you on such a journey that if someone disregards them as old fashioned there is a chance one might just miss a God moment waiting to happen. It's not the time to argue the point of hymns versus praise...I love all depends on the place and purpose of those gathered to sing.
The days following Wow! Alaska '08 were difficult...finding myself back in the "real world" after an awe inspiring time with God and feeling so alive and free in Him again was discouraging at times. The fact that God still wanted to use me was a humbling and encouraging experience all rolled into one wild adventure. All it took was God calling me to step away from the "norm" and for me to go and be with Him alone. It much so I was able to return to Alaska and see again how God moves in mighty ways when we are able to hear and see more clearly. These days haven't been easy either, but I'm holding on. Those moments in life where God comes and meets you right where you are...they are unforgettable and life-changing. The problem with that is often you are alone in these moments and the people around you haven't a clue how God's moving right before their eyes in your life.
It can be a lonely place, but a necessary one...

Monday, September 14, 2009

homesick for alaska

Yes, it's crazy, but true...I'm missing Alaska so much right now it hurts. Is it the place, the people, or the sense of purpose it holds for me that I miss the most? The answer is - yes! :) It's all that and knowing there's more to do there...meeting physical and spiritual needs of the people in our most beautiful of the United States.

My background picture on my laptop is this one of the kids and I at the B&G's Club...still! Oh, for one more more minute to share the love and hope of Jesus with them. Maybe one day soon, I'll return. I can only hope and pray that it is sooner than later. :)

Until then, I have a similar type outreach to the Picnic in the Park to plan here at home for late October...can't wait to see how God moves!

by Third Day

Take my heart and help me feel
Take my faith and make it real
Take my eyes and help me see
All the love surrounding me
Don't let me go
Hold me close to where You are
Don't let me go
Take my heart, take all of me
Take my loss and take my gain
Take my trials and take my pain
Take my life and let it be
All that You would have from me
Don't let me go
Hold me close to where You are
Don't let me go
Take my heart, take all of me

Monday, September 7, 2009

a quiet house

It's been a good Labor Day weekend, and now the house is quiet and we're not quite sure what to do with ourselves. The weekend started off with a trip down to Callaway Gardens for the Hot Air Balloon Glow with Terri and Daniel. It was fun to see the hot air balloons getting filled and then seeing their beautiful colors light up by the flames at dusk. It was something to behold.
My sister and her family arrived home about 30 minutes after the boys and I got back from the balloon glow. We stayed up kind of late, but it was fun. The kids were so excited to see one another again.
Saturday, I made a feast of a breakfast....waffles, scrambled eggs, bacon, sausage...the works! I'm not one to eat breakfast much, but I enjoy making it for others. I love to cook for my family and friends anytime, though, so it was a blast for me. After finishing, we took off for the day. Stopped by and showed my family the new office and property on the way to the Varsity and the World of Coke. The Varsity was packed with football fans and dragon-con people (Marvel Comics event in town). It was almost too busy to get a true feel of the Varsity...they didn't even have a change to yell "What'll ya have?" at was too busy and too loud. The kids liked the hats. We were all ready to get out of there, really...and head to the WofC. My boys were excited to go back again...they loved getting their own bottles of Coke after tasting all the flavors. This time around, Alex and Tim went pretty much for the North America flavors and had their fill. Can't say that I blame them for that... :) (note: I was reminded as to why we don't go downtown on a weekend, especially a holiday weekend at that, to the attractions...crazy busy and crowded with lines everywhere).

We had a quiet, then at the house watching the kids play in the pool. It was a great time with family and really nice knowing I didn't have a drive awaiting me the next day (but that never stops me from going again and again). :)

Today we had a lazy morning at the house and then we went out to eat brunch before the roadtrip North started. It's hard on the boys when it's time to say goodbye. They have big hearts like their mama and it always gets the best of them come time to say goodbye. A few tears were shed today after the car pulled out, but it just makes it sweeter the next time we see each other. Goodbyes are like that...I don't like them, but try to make the most of them.

Until next time...

Thursday, September 3, 2009

searching for answers...finding more questions

"If you want to build a ship, don't drum up the men to gather wood, divide the work, and give orders. Instead, teach them to yearn for the vast and endless sea." - Antoine De Saint-Exupery

I ran across this quote today...merely making sure that I spelled the word "inspiring" correctly (which I had) and Google gave me a list of choices "they" thought I might be searcing for, including "inspiring quotes" at the top of the list. I don't think it was by chance that I went ahead and clicked on the top choice. This quote kind of like jumped off the screen at me, catching my attention right away.

Now, mind you, I was in mid message to someone...needing to get things done...and there I was now pondering an inspiring quote. This took me on another completely different train of thought in the middle of my afternoon...and, honestly, I'm glad it did.
Not only did the quote bring to mind those who have been willing to teach me what it means to yearn for something bigger than myself instead of managing me to ensure a task's completion...but also made me hope that indeed there are those out there who would say the same of me as a result of our paths crossing.
Have anyone a need of some inspiration today? Look beyond what lies directly in front of you and you may just find what you're looking for in the end.

note: the quote was also found to be translated as...
"If you want to build a ship, don't drum up people to collect wood and don't assign them tasks and work, but rather teach them to long for the endless immensity of the sea." Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Best Friends Forever

" to one, friendship to many, and good will to all."
I saw this written on a wall of the Detroit airport just this past weekend while walking the halls waiting for my flight. Don't know who came up with it, but it sure is a nice thought. Simple, yet profound.

This made me think of those whom I call "Friend" and how much of an impact a person can make on my life. My best friend, Deb, for instance...we met 15 years ago at Taylor University Ft. Wayne. Don't really remember how we became friends, but it probably had something to do with trying to survive Dr. Wes' class on the Old Testament. Since then, we've had the best of times together and some pretty tough ones too. Praise God we made it through them and remain friends...I don't know what I would do without her in my life.

I can truly say she's one who knows everything about me and loves me anyway...she's the best! She gets my humor...she knows my moods and lets me get away with them or tells me to get over it with all the class a best friend can have...she lets me be me. Who could have a better BFF?

I do believe that if we've made it through all that's happened in the last 15 years and are still friends, we'll be good to go for the next 50 with no problems! Love ya, Girl!