Today I became overwhelmed.
Anxiety knocked at my door...and entered my heart.
Things seem impossible. Dreams seem out of reach.
The unknown...agony or adventure?
I cried over the meatloaf not getting done in time to eat before having to leave for church. Yeah, I was a bit stressed.
Over and over, all afternoon, I kept repeating Philippians 4:6 to myself, "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God." When I felt my heart racing the words, "Be anxious for nothing." were on my mind trying to make it to my heart.
Having to dig deep just to keep from just going to bed, I forced myself to get ready for church. In the back of my mind was the saying I heard awhile back in college. "The day you most want to skip out on church is probably the day you most likely need to be there." Whoever told me that, I thank you from the bottom of my heart!
I knew what Pastor Brian was preaching on. We're in Hebrews 11...the faith chapter (go figure)...ready to cover the verses on the faith of Moses. In my heart, I kept holding onto the little something inside me telling me that there was something for me at church tonight. Something specifically for me.
The last verse that Pastor Brian shared with us was Isaiah 41:13 (HCSB)...
"For I, the LORD your God,
hold your right hand and say to you:
Do not fear, I will help you."
Oh, it gets better...
He goes right into closing prayer. As I close my eyes, my Bible remains open to Hebrews 11, on my lap in the exact way and place it's been during the service. As we are praying, I hear a page turn in my Bible. It caught me off guard so much that I opened my eyes. All through service my pages haven't been blowing back and forth. There was no sudden draft that went across my row. Why was my Bible flipping pages now? What did I first see when I looked down at my Bible? Hebrews 10:23. Really. It happened.
How that page turned isn't for me to speculate, but I know without a doubt it was by the direction of God that it did just so I would get the message intended just for me tonight at church. I got my message...loud and clear.
God is God and He is good.